my life would be so much easier if i had anybody i could borrow $300 from… i can’t get anything done, can’t get ahead of these bills.

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TWD returns!!!

thank you AMC for my birthday gift!!

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8 minutes until my birthday.

i don’t want to cry about it. i just want to chill and enjoy my birthday. so that is what i choose to do. “it is what it is.”

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almost accurate

Color Test – Results

Your Existing Situation

“He is continually trying to hide her impulsive behavior, but her actions are causing problems and doubt from others. This causes her difficulty in making progress and leaves her feeling tense and irritable.”

Your Stress Sources

“Unhappy in her current situation or relationship, but is unwilling to change things due to her need for acceptance and belonging. Refuses to be seen as weak and although she is resistant to give too much to the relationship, she stays committed in order to feel the attachment. The situation depresses and irritates him, causing restlessness and impatience. she is seeking some sort of escape from the situation either physically or mentally, which affects her ability to concentrate.”

Your Restrained Characteristics

“Believes her hopes and dreams are realistic, but needs reassurance from others. Has strict standards when looking for a partner and wants guarantees that she will not be disappointed or lose.”

Current events have her feeling forced to make bargains and put aside her own desires for now. she is able to find satisfaction and happiness through sexual activity.

Your Desired Objective

“Always trying to make a good impression on others, and is constantly watching to see if she is succeeding in this. Is interested in how others react to him; this makes her feel in control. Strategically plans out ways to gain further influence over others and special recognition. Is easily distracted by the pleasingly beautiful and original.”

Your Actual Problem

“Feeling anxious and restless frustration toward current situation or unfulfilled emotional requirements are causing stress. Tries to escape into a fantasy-type environment full of sympathy, understanding, and artistic beauty.”

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i just have to cry it out.

i have so much going on inside of me. i can’t put it into words, all i do is feel. the tears come when they want to now, it doesn’t take much… a pic, a thought.. songs are the worst. i can’t fall apart like last time, but like i do deserve this. i will deal. these tears though.

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i don’t even like yo gotti, this is my jam though

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fuck me

i just had to kill a spider, lawd i was terrified. it was a nice sized one, climbing on the curtain above my head. i didn’t know it was there until i got up to refill my coffee. something said, look up. when i saw that shit, i froze. spiders scare me in a pure primordial way. i almost started hyperventilating, but the girls are here and nick had already left. i got a fly swatter and, while praying it wasn’t a jumping spider, swung as hard as i could. i was shaking hard as hell. shit, i’m still shaking, nerves all on edge…damn near started crying, no lie. spiders scare the fuck out of me.

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