So since the last time I posted shit has calmed down a lil. Graylan’s grandmother was put to rest on the 11th and my homegirl was put to rest the day after, which was my birthday. So I ain’t really feel like celebrating. Nah I didn’t go to the funerals cuz I just can’t do funerals. I don’t even want 1 when I die, for real. I told Graylan he better cremate me, don’t put me in the ground. Lol told him I’d come back to haunt his ass if he didn’t.
Oh I did get my hair cut on my birthday; its a cute lil do. Low maintenance and shit, always a plus for me. Graylan gave me the money to do that and get a couple of outfits for Ny and myself. Like, I am so loving my weight loss. I haven’t been a 12 in years and I love the way my clothes fit now. New earrings, some shades, lol can’t tell me I ain’t cute. Love this feeling.
The Cowboys had a game last night and we finally got our 1st win of the season. Those boys played hard as hell last night. Not that they haven’t been, we got a nice lil squad especially when you consider a good part of our team are 1st time players. Nick scored a touchdown after taking the ball from the other team. That was a good ass game. The thing I hate tho is a lot of the parents be out there acting like those boys are gonna get NFL contracts as soon as they come off the field. Like I was soooo close to busting a bitch in the head, she don’t even know how close she was seriously. But I can say this about the Cowboys parents/families: we have not got in any altercations with any of the other families this season and we are proud of that. So fuck all that dumb shit. When parents realize its about the kids and NOT their punk asses, the games will be more enjoyable. Mfs make me sick tho. Dumbasses.
Anywho…I have to admit I am loving the stay at home mom thing right now. Being able to be home when the kids get here, helping with homework, cooking, all that I revel in. Like I know I am going to get a job soon but now I’m hoping it will be 1 that allows me to be home when ny kids get home from school. I mean it amazes me to see kids getting off the bus and not go straight home. Or they’ll go home, drop their bookbags off and right back out the door. I wish the fuck I would. Both mine know its homework before anything, I don’t give a damn bout what they friends get to do. Speaking of, I have a parent teacher conference with Ny’s teacher Friday and she already know I better hear more good than bad. I need to email Nick’s teachers so I can check his progress as well. I won’t go as far to say I’m 1 of those helicopter parents, but I’ll be damned if I let my kids fall by the wayside cuz I’m too lazy to do the least of my parenting duties. As parents, we should want better for our kids, expect more from them and teach them accountability. There are too many kids out here that want the world but don’t wanna work for nothing and then when they get into trouble, expect their parents to bail them out. Smh, I blame parents for this. How can I not? I mean we are some soft ass parents and I do include myself in that. We reward these kids when they’ve done nothing to deserve it. Buy them shit when their grades aren’t up to par or they won’t do their chores. In the end all that teaches them is they can get something for nothing and we’re fucking them up cuz the world doesn’t work like that. It’s so many parents that think their kids do no wrong, quick to tell somebody their kid couldn’t/wouldn’t do such and such when they don’t even know what’s going on. I’ll tell anybody I don’t put shit past my kids cuz I know how I was at their ages. But just because I know how they can be don’t give them a free pass. I’m not their friend so I don’t accept when they fuck up, period.
Ehh, anyway…for the time being I am loving being a housewife – stay at home mom. It’s different in a good way. Things with me and Graylan are getting better everyday. I mean I opened up to him in a way I hadn’t before. I told him about my lil imvu situation and what was going on between me and him that made me turn to imvu the way I did. Instead of trying to fix things with him like I should’ve, I was trying to make perfect relationships virtually. Everything I did/said to them I could’ve said/did with him. I took the sorry way out so I deserved to have all that blow up in my face. I mean, I hated being made the fool but I deserved no less cuz the reality is that’s exactly what I was doing to Graylan. He’s not as bad as I made him out to be and he never deserved me virtually catching feelings for people who gave less than a fuck about me. So that’s where I’m at with that.
Lemme go, I got errands and shit. Hopefully I won’t take as long between my next post, I got a lot of shit to get off my mind. TTFN
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